What was the inspiration behind your track?
I actually wrote the track about 5 years ago, when I was 14, just going through my moody teenager phase and figuring out the kind of person I was going to be. It’s a mixture of mere teenage angst and high school drama, which at the time was the be all and end all.
It’s been weird singing it for 5 years to see how the meaning behind the lyrics have changed and how some things are still relevant. The inspiration for “Am I a Monster or am I a child.” came from a time when I didn’t like who I was, asking whether this is who I am or if these inner demons where something I was going to grow out of.
What did your process involve?
Lyrically, I wrote it when good old Ed Sheeran was just reaching success, so I sat down to write a fast paced, almost rap verse. He was a big inspiration for me then. I remember the words coming out quite easily as almost a burst of energy that I’d been trying to contain.
The guitar part game from messing around with chord shapes I’d learnt from playing ‘Blackbird’ by The Beatles – I still use those shapes to write bases of my songs.
When I brought it to the band about a year ago, I assumed it would be a little too quiet for us but after playing it round a few times, Sam brought in his guitar riffs and Tom built the drums at the end and it added a whole new dynamic to the track. It felt a lot more exciting than it had done before.
Is there a specific line that stands out in the song, and why?
There’s a few inside jokes in there that stand out to people that haven’t heard it before. Lines like ‘can’t forget these sticks of bread’ and ‘thanks Jack, your cliches keep me calm’ mean something to me and the people around me when I was younger but to everyone else I guess it might come across a bit weird. But I like that, it keeps it personal and maybe it can mean something completely different to someone else.
Can you describe your sound in three words?
Emotional organised chaos 😉
What’s the best thing about studying at BIMM?
The people; everyone is so vibrant and has something new you can learn from. I’m a different person to who I was two years ago purely because I’ve met so many different people who have inspired me in different ways. It’s such a good environment to be in, both on a personal growth level and a musical one.