What was the inspiration/is there a story behind your track?
The track is the first chapter in a conceptual storyline I have been working on in both music, acrylic paint and visual arts that deals with issues concerning domestic violence and the aftermath of impact within the victim’s lives. The storyline conceptualises a toxic relationship as a garden. ‘Crybaby’ represents the entrance to this garden which blooms with heavy scented blue poppies – representing naivety at the beginning of a toxic relationship and the sedative effect of abusive partners.
What did your process involve?
‘Crybaby’ began with mapping out the story between lyrics, melody and visual art, and piecing together the various hidden references and semiotics weaving them into the lyrics and soundscapes for the listeners subconscious to unravel. Heavily utilised throughout the process is the psychological theory of the night shape, where the narrative is obscured. This allows the listener to receive only certain parts of the story, causing their subconscious to recreate the gaps within the narrative allowing for crybaby’s story to become unique to each listener.
Do you have a favourite line/section of the song?
I adore the bridge; “Crybaby flash those whites, come hither gleam and blush. Crybaby share your vice, powder room, milky rush.“
This section is the only hint within the song to foreshadow the toxicity to come by contrasting the sweet side of crybaby (by referencing lyrics from The Chordettes dream man in Mr.Sandman) to the semiotics of a toxic behaviour pattern. However, I will let the listeners try to decipher this reference.
Can you describe your sound in three words?
Dreamy, esoteric, unsettling.
What’s the best thing about studying at BIMM Brighton
The best thing about studying at BIMM is the access to resources in the form of the libraries and the invaluable knowledge and experience of the tutors, as well as the city being such a vibrant place allowing room for more avant-garde multimedia performances such as mine.