What was the inspiration behind your track?
My inspiration was some problems in my family and with a friend; the feeling of just wanting to leave that all behind. Not leave behind the people but the problems.
Sometimes life seems so unfair when I see all the suffering that is happening in the world but I feel helpless about it. This is what most of my songs are about. But then I realise that every single person has some burden to carry and I am asking myself how could we help each other. I can’t find an answer to that, maybe someday I will but at this moment I am just able to sing about these feeling to maybe reach people who feel the same. I hope that if they hear my lyrics they will not feel alone anymore – because they are not.
What did your process involve?
First I wrote the lyrics in a sleepless night, I often do that to free my mind from all the thoughts that are keeping me awake. This often happens in a very metaphorical kind of way, I don’t know why but I think it’s just easier for me to hide my feelings behind symbols like lakes or the image of driving away.
The next day I was still sad and I had a day off so I sat down with my guitar (even though I’m not that good at playing guitar) and searched for chords that supported my feelings. I don’t really think about chord progressions or anything, it just has to feel right for me in the moment.
Then I try to sing my words, maybe change some so that they fit in with the melody I am creating.
Afterwards I wanted to do the song for my Band Performance Assessment /Audition and booked rehearsals with some of my fellow students.
Everyone created something unique with their instruments to support the feeling and vibe I wanted to have for this very emotional song.
I asked some of them to record the instruments to my version which I produced together with Laura Jiménez. Florian Ernst recorded the guitar and Chris Crabtree the bass. Laura and I also tried to program the drum part a bit like Joakim Jägerhult played them in the rehearsals. The final song is a product of so many emotions and influences – of my fellow students, my family, my life. I’m always very nervous to sing this song live because it’s so personal for me but it’s also such a good feeling at the same time – to just free my feelings so that they don’t feel that heavy anymore.
Is there are story behind the track?
There is a story behind that track but it is so personal and I don’t feel like I have the power to talk about that because even though I am involved it is not my story to tell. It just helped me to write and sing about it because this is how I deal with my feelings. For me singing was always a kind of refuge and therapy.
Can you describe your sound in three words?
I don’t think I can but I will try:
Desperate, acoustic, honest
What’s the best thing about studying at BIMM?
The best thing about studying at BIMM is creating yourself I think; everyone is allowed to be just who they are and gets supported. You can find your own sound and sometimes that seems hard but you have to come out of your shell and fight for it. Because this is why we are here, we want nothing else, just music.